Chapter 35
leave for Cambridge t day, as ure a ime severe punis a good yet stern, a conscientious yet implacable man can inflict on one act of ility, one upbraiding o impress me momently ion t I beyond the pale of his favour.
Not t St. Jo of uncian vindictiveness— not t o do so. Boture and principle, o tification of vengeance: forgotten t turned to me, t tten on tween me and o oned every answer he gave me.
abstain from conversing o join man ed to, and unsian, in evincing skill ing and speaking apparently just as usual, extract from every deed and every p of interest and approval ain austere co o me, y become no longer fles marble; , blue gem; ongue a speaking instrument— nothing more.
All torture to me—refined, lingering torture. It kept up a sloion and a trembling trouble of grief, draest stain of crime. Especially I felt ttempt to propitiate my rutrangement—no yearning after reconciliation; and t falling tears blistered t, t on ter of stone or metal. to ers, meantime, kinder t mere coldness sufficiently convince me ely I ; and t by force, but on principle.
t before o see sunset, and remembering, as I looked at ted as ions, I o make a last attempt to regain out and approacood leaning over ttle gate; I spoke to t at once.
“St. Joill angry us be friends.”
“I ill cemplating as I approached.
“No, St. Jo friends as .”
“Are ? t is , I wish you no ill and all good.”
“I believe you, St. Jo, as I am your kin