to think us rude.

    After breakfast I tried to telep I couldnt manage on my oo ask JJ to do it for me, and  ts of extra numbers to dial, and some you o leave out, and I dont kno being celepold me I could call once a day  relax properly.

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    But neito say. Matty doesnt do anyt done anyt particular day.

    in alked about t, but mostly alking about the garden.

    And I t t for a moment, and tried not to feel sorry for myself. Love and concern and t of it, t only a mot time in  to  of me ly t of till better at it tice Id  I could augo know in a couple of weeks.

    t meant   meant  afraid of, ever since  frig. And I didnt knoo kill myself more or less, kno. I didnt knoime or not.

    I  doairs, and I sahe lobby.

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    And I smiled at ely, but I didnt stop, and I kept  care t Martin  of tel. If I  made telephone call I would have cared, because he was in charge of our money.

    But if   matter muc? Id stay t, and Id eat, or not, and Id drink, or not, and go , and  do  matter to anyone at all. And I  of t sad on imes? I can imagine t time to think.

    For t of tried to keep out of everybodys in  seem to mind. Jess didnt like it muco make me eat  on t I just smiled and said, No t say, But youre alo me!  to talk to me now?

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