our impromptu roof party. I  even boting e, an omission ic delusion t tions sure.

    t sruck me as an anso confuse and obscure to illuminate. As for me… ell, I associated Penny, perandably, ime before tarted to go aeen-year-olds, before prison. I o convince myself t if I could make t . I bring you momentous nes not. ?

    My immediate problem ion rutful and upsetting, and it   off t could o one anot look like colleagues, or poetry ents, or clubbers, or substance-abusers; t o be said, , if failing to look like a substance-abuser could ever be described as a problem. And even if tance-abusers, I ill find it o explain t desperation of my desire to see told Penny and   mine s t I o toilet;  t door  on Neo attend ty?

    So I decided simply to carry on as if to explain.

    Sorry. Penny, this is Penny.

    Penny seemed unconvinced even by troductions, as if I arted lying already.

    But you still  told me whey are.

    As in… ? As in,  ts a long story.

    Good.

    Maureen I kno of all? Maureen stared at me.

    Its a long time ago no it? ell remember in a minute. And JJ used to be part of the old Channel  crowd, and Jess is his girlfriend.

    Jess put oucire t have wished.

    And s. t… deaf idiots.

    onig… like… a party, said JJ tentatively.

    ch.

    , Jess?   Jess s  sort of crazy night.

    And o go? At eleven-ty? In ty? it me? t I cant explain. And I attempted to look simultaneously ic. e o ty and unpredictability, a co