thURSDAY, JULY 6, 1944

    Dearest Kitty,

    My blood runs cold alks about becoming a criminal or a speculator; of course,  I still he feeling hes afraid of his own weakness.

    Margot and Peter are alo me, quot;If I rength, if I had your drive and unflagging energy, could. . .

    Is it really sucrait not to let myself be influenced by ot in following my own conscience?

    to be , I cant imagine ;Im ; and tay t  about yourself, ;Because its muc to!quot; t mean a life of deceit and laziness is easy too? O cant be true. It cant be true t people are so readily tempted by ease. . . and money. Ive given a lot of t to er to believe in  of all, to cter. I dont knorack.

    Ive often imagined  o confide everyto me. But no its reac point, I realize  it is to put yourself in someope elses s ans;easyquot; and quot;money”

    are neely alien concepts to me.

    Peters beginning to lean on me and I dont  t, not under any circumstances.

    Its anding on your o, but rue to your cer and soul, its ill.

    Ive been drifting around at sea,  days searcive antidote to t terrible ;easy.quot;  clear to ,  o a place y, so far do o the surface again?

    ere all alive, but  know w for; were all searching for happiness;

    are different and yet tunity to get an education and make someto  . . . . And ts somet acaking t. Earning  speculating and being lazy. Laziness may look inviting, but only rue satisfaction.

    I cant understand people o  t isnt Pete