say I was boy-crazy.

    t by. Peter o say o me. I started sc t and felt tentions, but t er on, errible crus as Ive already told you, I never fell in love again.

    t;time ; ts  old myself Id forgotten Peter and no longer liked . But my memories of rong t I o admit to myself t t I  nothing has changed;

    on trary, as Ive groure, my love and no Peter t I  still s to tten me completely. I sa no one but Peter could uck in my mind t way.

    Ive been in an utter state of confusion today. ed to s, quot;Oer!quot; Ive been tantly, and all day long Ive been repeating to myself, quot;Oel, my darling, darling Petel . .

    .”

    o go on living and praying to God t, if  out of ers pato my eyes, read t;Oo you long ago.”

    Once  sex, oo young to understand t kind of desire. But I t I did understand it, and noo me noel!

    I sa looked so different. My eyes er. I looked  t tely faded from my lips. Im not els not t I can still feel iful eyes gazing at me and  c mine. . . Oel, Petel, o free myself from your image? ouldnt anyone itute? I love you,  t it simply couldnt keep gro o leap out and reveal itself in all its magnitude.

    A ; likely to marry?quot; Id ;Sally, since he makes me feel

    good, peaceful and safe!quot; But no;Petel, because I love  and all my soul. I surrender myself completely!quot; Except for t one touc ts as far as it goes.

    t attic el, sitting on ter talking for a s later I felt el, come to me. t Petel!

    EDNESDAY, JANUAR