ance, in a certain o time  inside me once again.

    Sis er also es t girls my age feel very insecure about t beginning to discover t ts and s. Id just turned teen ed t myself and realized t Ive become an quot;independent personquot; sooner t girls.

    Sometimes o toucs and listen to t, steady beating of my .

    Unconsciously, I  at Jacques, I could no longer restrain my curiosity about oucs. Jacque refused.

    I also errible desire to kiss ime I see a female nude, suc ory book, I go into ecstasy. Sometimes I find te I o struggle to ears. If only I had a girlfriend!

    thURSDAY, JANUARY 6, 1944

    Dearest Kitty,

    My longing for someone to talk to  I someook it into my o select Peter for to Peters room during t it  Peters too

    polite to so stay long. Ive alo linger in  alking  icing, and yesterday I got my cer, you see, is currently going t do anytting across from eac able, Peter on the divan.

    It gave me a   ts, and in ainty as to o be time a flicker of awareness of y. I saw ed.

    I ed to say, quot;tell me about yourself. Look beneatty exterior.quot; But I found t it o tions to ask them.

    to a close, and not t I told  ticle on blus e you, of course, just t  older. “

    t nig, all t I o beg Peter for favors ing. But people  anyto satisfy take me, for example, Ive made up my mind to visit Peter more often and, some o talk to me.

    You mustnt ter, because Im not. If ter instead of a son, Id ried to make friends h her.